Hi! My name’s Merry and this is my first attempt at a blog. I’m 29 and from Winnipeg, Manitoba Canada.
My weight, health and fitness have all had their ups and downs over the years (more ups than downs on the weight front, let’s be honest). For the first time in my life I’m trying to accept my body and myself instead of just trying to “get skinny.” At the same time my priorities for myself are getting my body fit and strong. And just between you and me, I think it might be working!
Here’s what happened…
On January 23rd 2008 I quit smoking. It was something I’d wanted to do for EVER but couldn’t quite get there. I was an all or nothing smoker. There was no “cutting back” or switching to a “lighter” cigarette. One puff and that was it, another full on day of smoking was upon me.
In late 2007 my Dad was diagnosed with colon cancer and I couldn’t bear smoking in front of him. So I quit. I didn’t even really mean to. I watched an Allen Carr video on a whim and put out my last cigarette, half smoked, partway through the video. It was hard – but never as hard as I thought it was going to be. In fact, I kind of loved the process of quitting smoking! There has not been a day that’s gone be that I have not thought to myself “I am SO glad I don’t smoke!”
In the summer of 2008 it became pretty touch and go with my Dad’s cancer. He asked me to move home that September to help him through the last stage of his life.
This was when I made the choice to get healthy. First and foremost because I did not want my Dad to see me abusing/neglecting my body and life. Secondly because I knew that what I was about to go through would be the hardest thing I’d ever done. It would be so easy to fall into the old terrible habits such as cupcake-comfort and crippling self-pity. But instead I challenged myself to commit to my health during this terrible time. If I could do it now I could do it forever. And so in the 2 months leading up to moving home I started working out (mostly walking and zumba + some swimming) and really focused on nourishing my body with whole, real foods.
During the winter, as things began to get bleaker and I was able to afford less time out of the house, I stumbled upon the wide world of health and fitness blogs. I was so inspired and felt a wonderful connection to the outside world without ever having to leave home. Although I lurked and never made my presence known, I took a lot of support from the blogs I followed. Additionally I was motivated to start running. The only times I left the house were to go to the track every few days. It felt so good, but unfortunately I pushed myself to hard and too fast and sustained an injury that kept me off running for nearly 2 months. I’m back at it now, being much more reasonable about my abilities. I’m working on the Couch to 5K plan and I am loving it! I’ve signed up for my first 5K and can’t wait!
My Dad died at home on January 31st 2010. I miss him terribly but am doing my best to learn from the experience and to continue my voyage to a healthful life in his memory.
I hope that this blog will find those who can take something from it as I did for those lonely months. Or that it might be a laugh for someone here and there.